MEDITATION ON PSALM 90

This post was originally written as past of a homework assignment for the Leadership Development Network. I thought I would share it here.

Spending time with Ps 90 I began to notice that it truly is the prayer of my life. For me it has become a summary of where I have been and God’s promise for the future. It echoes other journaling I have been doing.

God has almost always been the one I looked to through all the trouble I have experienced. He has and is truly my dwelling place. I have felt his anger and indignation at the sin and brokenness in my life. He has revealed much that was in secret and continues to do so. Verse 13, has been the desperate cry of my heart so many times.

Yet I have also experienced God’s unfailing love. I am experiencing a new beginning. God has been showing me that now is the time of laying a new foundation. A place to live from that is not based in the past. I believe God is showing me that LDN is a big part of this foundation.

TODAY'S THE DAY!!!!

Do you remember the first day of school? Well I don't remember grade one but I do remember other 'first" days. The first day in a new school times three, the first day of high school times three, the first day of university and now the first day of Leadership Development Network. (LDN) It's only a 1/2 day for first year students today. Really, it's an orientation. Next week all the students will be there and we're right into it.

I remember the first day nerves. The book bag already packed, lunch made and clothes decided upon. Most of the time I had early morning starts and long commutes because I went to Christian School for all but my last year of high school, grade 13.

Not much has changed. The book bag was packed last night and clothes decided upon. The first year student assignment completed and printed. I only have a 5 minute commute but I was awake at 5:30 am thanks to Mr Racoon.

Yet, this is different than before too. I'm also really excited. It's become so clear to me reading Robert Mulholland's book "An Invitation To a Journey" that this is as much a spiritual journey as an intellectual one. God has opened the door and placed me on this journey. Never before have I been so sure of His leading when it comes to school. This is more than the next obvious step one takes to a career. I have no plan for after. I am more aware that I do not know the future God has in store for me.

That is a good thing! It means living in each moment and learning to trust God. The hardest thing about spiritual formation according to Mulholland is giving up our control and letting God have control over every aspect of our lives. So I begin this great adventure.

I'm not a very consistent blogger so I won't make any big promises. I'll try to share some updates and thoughts a long the way.